March 11, 2008

story people tuesday: the future



“THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT THE FUTURE: It doesn't have to look any particular way, but around here, if it doesn't, a lot of people will never speak to you again.”  Storypeople.com
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March 09, 2008

changes

Today I’ve been in a state of blah.  I’m not really sure where it’s coming from.  Generally, I’m a happy person, or at least content.  I’m easy going, not easily bothered, and it really takes a lot to upset me.  But today, I don’t know, I’ve just been argh.  This morning I woke up so angry and I didn’t even know why.  I didn’t want to get out of bed, but I didn’t want to lay there either.  I wanted to go out, but I wanted to stay at home.  I was hungry, but nothing appealed to me.  Nothing satisfied me, nothing, not even my clothes.  They actually hurt next to my skin.  Maybe it’s the weather?  Maybe I’m just ready for spring and the sun and its warm rays?  Maybe I’m ready to move forward, move on, move out, something?  Today I just really needed someone to hold me and there was no one there.  And I think what makes me angry is that I’m the one to blame for this.  It’s my fault I’m alone.  I’ve chosen to be alone…for the most part.  Overall, it’s been my decision.  But I’ve been thinking that maybe I don’t want to be alone anymore.  I don’t want to do it by myself.  I need someone to fill this emptiness, this void, this anger.  Change is hard, that I know, but I’m ready for a change.  So I’ve decided to make some changes.  I’m going to try and be more open.  I’m going to be more, care more, love more, because I’m tired of feeling alone and angry all the time.
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March 06, 2008

close behind you

I lie awake at night it goes on far too long
Somehow I’ve allowed things to go terribly wrong
Sometimes I lie there and wonder where I belong
I know your words by heart and I sing them like a song

You pull me close and tell me settle down
Everything goes quiet your voice barely makes a sound
My heart goes heavy and the tears they pour down
You take my hand and lead my feet to the ground

I follow close behind you
I’ll let you lead the way
If I stay close behind you
I’ll never lose my way
At times it’s hard to see you
But I know you’re always there
Cause to do this all alone
would be so unfair

I lie awake at night it goes on far too long
Sometimes I pray for tomorrow to bring a pleasant song
The air is cool now my feet are cold on the lawn
But I’m right behind you so nothing can go wrong

I know you’ll never leave me but there are times I feel alone
I’m out here lost and lonely wandering on my own
But you’ll always be there I'll never be alone
You'll always be there you'll guide me back home

I follow close behind you
I’ll let you lead the way
If I stay close behind you
I’ll never lose my way
At times it’s hard to see you
but I know you’re always there
cause to do this all alone
would be so unfair
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March 04, 2008

story people tuesday: the world itself


“When she held out her arms, the world itself wrapped around me & held me tight.”  www.storypeople.com

Have you ever been swallowed by a hug?  Been completely consumed in someone’s arms?   Had your day turned around by one embrace?  Had your world stand still by one squeeze?  I have.  It’s one of my most favorite things in the world.  Actually, it’s my favorite.

Normally, I’m not an affectionate person.  I’ve always been that way.  I hate using the word always, but in this case it’s true.  Everyone says so.   I tend to keep people at a distance, at least an arms length away, until it comes to the devouring hug.  A hug that you get lost in.  A hug that lasts longer than 15 seconds.  A hug that you don’t want to let go of.  A hug that in an instant can turn an atrocious day into a pleasurable one.  These are hard to find, but when you do, you cling to it.  You don’t want it to end.  It’s implausible to believe that something so small, so minute, so trivial could be so significant and substantial to your happiness and well being.  It’s a hug, nothing more than an embrace.  But when it’s done the right way, by the right person, at the right time, it’s magnetic, soothing and uplifting.
This type of hug can only be given by certain people, Skilled Hug Connoisseurs; at least that’s what I call them.  Rarely are they aware they possess these hugging talents.  But once you are hugged by one of them you immediately know. 
 The last time I was lucky enough to receive one of these hugs was a couple of months ago.  I was in NY and had the opportunity of meeting and listening to an incredible writer who I’m fanatical about and who I learned is an exceptional Skilled Hug Connoisseur.  We met for tea and a tarot reading before her book reading.  We had never met before, only exchanged emails.  But upon meeting she greeted me with the biggest, warmest, affectionate hug.  Her arms swallowed me whole.  I wanted to bottle it up and keep it forever. I wanted to live in that hug.  Throughout the evening I discovered her personality, character and spirit to be just as big and warm and affectionate.  Her laugh alone was intoxicating and contagious.  She is someone who you enjoy being around.  You are blessed just by being in the same room with.  She has such a positive, exhilarating, hilarious disposition that you can’t help but adore her.  She’s real.  She embraces her flaws along with her strengths and talents.  She doesn’t seem to be afraid to be vulnerable.  I admire her.  I would like to share a fragment of her qualities and character.  And I would be overjoyed to have her amazing hug capabilities.  I would hug myself everyday, all day and then at night I would share my hugging skills with those in need of a good squeeze.  After all, a hug can turn your day around.         
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March 02, 2008

a walk in the park

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