how to annoy me
…walk in the middle of the running path with your huge ass stroller when it clearly states every five-hudred feet, “NO STROLLERS!”
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
you’re gonna suffer for my sins
Most of you know how much I love Terra Naomi, her music and the unbelievable things she does with her voice, and how I just can’t get enough of her. Well, this past Sunday I had the pleasure of seeing her amazing talented self at Joe’s Pub. And as always, she was fantastic. It was a very intimate show, not a huge crowd, only her, her two guitars and piano on stage. But what made the night for me, well not really “made” the night, but what had me thinking after the show was one particular song of hers, “Suffer for Her Sins.” Though a new song, I have heard it before, but I guess I never really paid that much attention to the lyrics. But the song is basically about a mother and daughter, and how the daughter is going to spend her life suffering for her mothers sins. I spent the entire train ride home, plus the last several days wrapping my brain around the idea of this. And somewhere between Sunday night and this morning I’ve come to accept or maybe grasp is a better word, that this concept is true.
I believe in karma, that what goes around, comes around. I believe we can and do affect the lives of others without being aware of it. And I DO believe that we ourselves not only pay for our sins but those around us do as well. That our sins and actions cause a ripple effect, spanning outward, touching and crashing into those around us. But I ask, How can this be? How can it be fair to suffer for someone else’s mistakes and actions? I don’t know. Though, I believe that all our actions and decisions have consequences, good or bad, and we can affect those around us positively as well as negatively.
After reciting and contemplating the lyrics in my head I immediately wanted to call my mom and thank her for being the most saintly, holy person I know. For not making stupid decisions, for realizing early on that her actions just might affect her children. My mother and I have actually had a similar conversation such as this, but I have never bothered or taken the time to say, thank you. God knows that the pain and suffering I’ve had in my life is a direct result of my own actions and sins. I am beyond grateful that my mother kept her sinning to a minimum. Because wow, have I made some horrible decisions and mistakes all on my own. I already feel guilty and ashamed because somehow, eventually my children will suffer for something I’ve done or yet to do. And that scares the hell out of me.
*Here is a video of “Suffer for Her Sins.” I’ve also included the lyrics.When I was just a little girl
My mother said to me
Just before she tucked me into bed
As she leaned in close
I felt her lips upon my cheek
And softly these six words are what she said
You’re gonna suffer for my sins
You’re gonna suffer for my sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
You’re gonna suffer for my sins
Predictably those cursed words did haunt me everyday
No matter what, no matter where I hid
I spend my years believing that there was no other way
But suffering and suffering’s what I did
Oh yes, I suffered for her sins
That’s right, i suffered for her sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
And so I suffer for her sins
30 years have passed since mama brought me to this world
That’s 30 years spent trapped inside this shell
And nobody believes me
They think I’m a foolish girl
But there are many different kinds of hell
And now I suffer for her sins
Oh yes I suffer for her sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
And so I suffer for her sins
Oh now I suffer for her sins
Oh yes I suffer for her sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
And so I suffer for her sins
Oh yes I suffer for her sins
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
is it october 30th yet?
I’m not sure how much longer I can wait for the new episodes of 30 Rock to begin. My skin is literally itching for it. If you’re not watching it, then you’re no friend of mine. Seriously, watch it. Love it. Make babies with it.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
i missed you, dear blog, please take me back
I know, it’s been a while, or rather forever. I doubt anyone even stops by these days. But the off chance that someone does, rest assure, I’m back!
