Foolish Thoughts http://brookealexandra.blog.com/ en-US Tue, 11 Mar 2008 16:59:06 +0100 Tue, 11 Mar 2008 16:59:06 +0100 Blog.com http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2861276/ story people tuesday: the future http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2861276/

“THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT THE FUTURE: It doesn't have to look any particular way, but around here, if it doesn't, a lot of people will never speak to you again.”  Storypeople.com
 brooke alexandra Tue, 11 Mar 2008 11:59:06 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2845391/ changes http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2845391/ Today I’ve been in a state of blah.  I’m not really sure where it’s coming from.  Generally, I’m a happy person, or at least content.  I’m easy going, not easily bothered, and it really takes a lot to upset me.  But today, I don’t know, I’ve just been argh.  This morning I woke up so angry and I didn’t even know why.  I didn’t want to get out of bed, but I didn’t want to lay there either.  I wanted to go out, but I wanted to stay at home.  I was hungry, but nothing appealed to me.  Nothing satisfied me, nothing, not even my clothes.  They actually hurt next to my skin.  Maybe it’s the weather?  Maybe I’m just ready for spring and the sun and its warm rays?  Maybe I’m ready to move forward, move on, move out, something?  Today I just really needed someone to hold me and there was no one there.  And I think what makes me angry is that I’m the one to blame for this.  It’s my fault I’m alone.  I’ve chosen to be alone…for the most part.  Overall, it’s been my decision.  But I’ve been thinking that maybe I don’t want to be alone anymore.  I don’t want to do it by myself.  I need someone to fill this emptiness, this void, this anger.  Change is hard, that I know, but I’m ready for a change.  So I’ve decided to make some changes.  I’m going to try and be more open.  I’m going to be more, care more, love more, because I’m tired of feeling alone and angry all the time.
 brooke alexandra Sun, 09 Mar 2008 01:10:53 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2824858/ close behind you http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2824858/ I lie awake at night it goes on far too long
Somehow I’ve allowed things to go terribly wrong
Sometimes I lie there and wonder where I belong
I know your words by heart and I sing them like a song

You pull me close and tell me settle down
Everything goes quiet your voice barely makes a sound
My heart goes heavy and the tears they pour down
You take my hand and lead my feet to the ground

I follow close behind you
I’ll let you lead the way
If I stay close behind you
I’ll never lose my way
At times it’s hard to see you
But I know you’re always there
Cause to do this all alone
would be so unfair

I lie awake at night it goes on far too long
Sometimes I pray for tomorrow to bring a pleasant song
The air is cool now my feet are cold on the lawn
But I’m right behind you so nothing can go wrong

I know you’ll never leave me but there are times I feel alone
I’m out here lost and lonely wandering on my own
But you’ll always be there I'll never be alone
You'll always be there you'll guide me back home

I follow close behind you
I’ll let you lead the way
If I stay close behind you
I’ll never lose my way
At times it’s hard to see you
but I know you’re always there
cause to do this all alone
would be so unfair
 brooke alexandra Thu, 06 Mar 2008 10:04:18 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2810137/ story people tuesday: the world itself http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2810137/


“When she held out her arms, the world itself wrapped around me & held me tight.”  www.storypeople.com

Have you ever been swallowed by a hug?  Been completely consumed in someone’s arms?   Had your day turned around by one embrace?  Had your world stand still by one squeeze?  I have.  It’s one of my most favorite things in the world.  Actually, it’s my favorite.

Normally, I’m not an affectionate person.  I’ve always been that way.  I hate using the word always, but in this case it’s true.  Everyone says so.   I tend to keep people at a distance, at least an arms length away, until it comes to the devouring hug.  A hug that you get lost in.  A hug that lasts longer than 15 seconds.  A hug that you don’t want to let go of.  A hug that in an instant can turn an atrocious day into a pleasurable one.  These are hard to find, but when you do, you cling to it.  You don’t want it to end.  It’s implausible to believe that something so small, so minute, so trivial could be so significant and substantial to your happiness and well being.  It’s a hug, nothing more than an embrace.  But when it’s done the right way, by the right person, at the right time, it’s magnetic, soothing and uplifting.
This type of hug can only be given by certain people, Skilled Hug Connoisseurs; at least that’s what I call them.  Rarely are they aware they possess these hugging talents.  But once you are hugged by one of them you immediately know. 
 The last time I was lucky enough to receive one of these hugs was a couple of months ago.  I was in NY and had the opportunity of meeting and listening to an incredible writer who I’m fanatical about and who I learned is an exceptional Skilled Hug Connoisseur.  We met for tea and a tarot reading before her book reading.  We had never met before, only exchanged emails.  But upon meeting she greeted me with the biggest, warmest, affectionate hug.  Her arms swallowed me whole.  I wanted to bottle it up and keep it forever. I wanted to live in that hug.  Throughout the evening I discovered her personality, character and spirit to be just as big and warm and affectionate.  Her laugh alone was intoxicating and contagious.  She is someone who you enjoy being around.  You are blessed just by being in the same room with.  She has such a positive, exhilarating, hilarious disposition that you can’t help but adore her.  She’s real.  She embraces her flaws along with her strengths and talents.  She doesn’t seem to be afraid to be vulnerable.  I admire her.  I would like to share a fragment of her qualities and character.  And I would be overjoyed to have her amazing hug capabilities.  I would hug myself everyday, all day and then at night I would share my hugging skills with those in need of a good squeeze.  After all, a hug can turn your day around.         
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brooke alexandra Sun, 02 Mar 2008 01:17:49 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2777257/ argh, i HATE going to the doctor http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2777257/ nataliedee.com


I have to go back to the doctor this week…AND I’m not looking forward to it.
 brooke alexandra Mon, 25 Feb 2008 00:12:38 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2741657/ story people tuesday: season of joy http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2741657/


"She asked me when the season of joy was supposed to end & I said I didn't really think there was an exact date, so we left the tree up till June that year."  storypeople.com

My mother still has her Christmas decorations up, sans the tree, of course.  But the countless angels, snowmen, rugs, sheets, comforters, and pillows are all out, proclaiming it's still the joyous holiday season.  I’m thinking I should be concerned.
 brooke alexandra Tue, 19 Feb 2008 18:06:01 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2718059/ terra naomi: check, check, check her out! http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2718059/

Terra Naomi:  Mind-blowing!

Really!  

I was recently introduced to her music, and instantly hooked and obsessed.  Every single song I love.   As any music lover knows, that’s something very rare.  Normally, there’s one or two songs that are just, eh ok.  But even her covers are incredible, including; Time After Time, by Cyndi Lauper, Santeria, by Sublime, and my favorite, Umbrella, by Rihanna.  But however impressive her covers are, her original songs are 100 times that.  Right now I’m smitten with, Say It’s Possible and Up Hear.  I can’t get enough.  I catch myself singing them in the shower, in the car, walking down the street…I love it!  Though, I’m head over heels for, Too Far Gone.  It is THE BEST song I’ve heard in quite some time.  It’s a joint effort by Terra Naomi and Rachel Thibodeau.  Unfortunately, you can only find it here on Youtube. 

But, like always, I like to give you a little taste of the good stuff.  So please enjoy, Terra Naomi: Up Here.

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Add to My Profile | More Videos brooke alexandra Thu, 14 Feb 2008 00:17:43 +0100 http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2697350/ i think i do, maybe...i'm not sure http://brookealexandra.blog.com/2697350/ I’m not sure where I stand. I’m not sure if I liked it or hated it.  Of course, I’m talking about Lipstick Jungle.  I’ve watched it twice, now.  I thought I was hooked during the first five minutes.  But as the show went on, I don’t know?  I kept losing interest.  The plots and storylines were expected and predictable.  I mean the scene where Kim Raver’s character, Nico is in the car, crying after having just cheated on her husband, was very Diane Lane in Unfaithful.  But, the actual scene where she cheated on her husband was HOT!  I spent an entire hour torn between love and hate: I loved it, I hated it, I loved it, I hated it.  Unfortunately, watching it a second time was of no significant help.  Perhaps, I expected too much?  Maybe I expected/demanded a level of greatness that was impossible to fulfill?  No, I don’t think that was it.
 At the beginning, I truly liked Brooke Shields Character, Wendy.  She was fun, smart, sexy, and talented.  She was a wife, a mother, and a top executive to boot.  Her character’s dialogue started off strong and sharp and fun, but gradually lost its power.  It became boring and humdrum.  The writers seemed to be trying too hard.  There were certain lines where you just knew her character would never say things like that.  Then there was Kim Raver’s character, Nico.  I’ll be honest; I was surprised she was cast in this role.  Though, I really don’t know much about her.  I know she was on that show with the cops and fire fighters a few years ago, but other than that, I know very little.  And I actually like that.  I like that I don’t have a defined impression of her.  I really only hated the car scene of hers.  I wish there would have been more background information on her marriage at the beginning of the episode.  It would have made the affair more understandable.  Other than that, I liked her character.  But my favorite, by far, was Lindsay Price’s character, Victory Ford (You can’t just say, Victory.  You have to say, Victory Ford, you just have to).  I have loved Lindsay since she played, Janet Sosna, Steve’s girlfriend/wife on the last three seasons of Beverly Hills 90210.  I just love her.  And I love her character, Victory Ford!  She’s sarcastic, witty, funny, sexy, smart and has a wardrobe to die for.  Her character is by far, the most fun and entertaining to watch.  And is why I will be tuning in again, Thursday at 10pm.  Hopefully, after this episode I will know whether I enjoy it or not.  I think I do, maybe…I’m not sure.

*Thank God the writers strike is over.  Now I can finally watch new episodes of 30 Rock and Pushing Daisies!

 brooke alexandra Wed, 13 Feb 2008 16:05:00 +0100