i moved. please follow
Most of you know that I have not been happy here (blog.com) for quite sometime. Well, this weekend pushed me over the edge. You can now find me here: Foolish Thoughts.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
make me feel better
I tell you everything, even when you don’t want to listen. You’re who I run to. I just like being along side of you…
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
my sister and her fetus
My older sister is pregnant. She’s due sometime around December 9th. Unfortunately, I will not be able to head home until the end of December, which means I will not be able to see “the fetus” until it’s a couple weeks old. I say, “the fetus” because I refuse to believe it’s a boy, unlike all the so-called doctors. They keep insisting I’m wrong. I haven’t bought a single thing for it, I refuse. Every time I step foot into a baby clothing store or section I immediately and unconsciously head straight to the girl stuff. Everything there is so cute and frilly and girlie and sweet. While the boy side is, ugh. Boys clothes are not cute, therefore, not fun to buy. I want to buy a pink little tutu and multi-colored tights, skirts and dresses and matching sweaters. I want to be able to braid and play with her hair, especially because genetically this kid is going to have thick jet black curly hair. It’s going to be beautiful and it should not be wasted on a boy.
To keep me informed, up to date, and included in all the fetus business, my sister has sent me pictures of the different ultrasounds she has had. This is the latest one.
It’s the new 4D image. It’s amazing what they can do now with technology. I mean besides for the lumpy forehead, it looks/resembles a real human. I already feel sorry for it though, by the looks of things it has sadly inherited my fat cheeks. But it still has a few more months to cook, so hopefully it will grow into them and that giant lumpy forehead will smooth out a bit. Anyway, here’s hoping. Because if they don’t, I will make fun of it for the rest of it’s life.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
when your family reads your blog, what will they discover?
(a text conversation)
Shasta: Hey do you have a blog still?
Brooke: Maybe, why?
Shasta: Uh…I want to read it of course.
Brooke: What? I don’t believe you.
Shasta: Brooke Alexandra tell me the damn website right this instant!
Brooke: Shasta Rose, DO NOT tell me what to do! …it’s brookealexandra.blog.com
Shasta: Now was that so hard?
Brooke: Actually, it was. But not as hard as his dick was last night!
Shasta: Shut up hooker. You make me laugh.
Brooke: I know, its because I’m so hi-lar-ious!
Shasta: Or completely certifiable.
Brooke: Maybe a little of both?
Shasta: Maybe more than a little.
Brooke: Maybe.
Shasta: Can Wesley read your blog?
Brooke: Wesley ——, our cousin or Wesley Snipes, the actor?
Shasta: That would be our cousin. You’re the one with hollywood contacts not me. Besides I haven’t talked to him since he did my taxes.
Shasta: I thought you had another one with the name “brookelyn” in it.
Brooke: You let Wesley Snipes do your taxes? But he sucks at it! And the “brookelyn” blog is only for my past, present, and future lovers.
Shasta: Lovers huh? Well what’s his name so I can ask him what the other blog is?
Brooke: El Salvador.
Shasta: That’s a country.
Brooke: SO? That’s STILL his name.
Shasta: Awesome name. Bringing him home for Christmas?
Brooke: Yeah, I guess I better. I mean I AM due in March, so I guess we need to let THAT cat out of the bag pretty soon.
Shasta: Go all the way to NY and then you have a baby? I’d almost believe it, but you’re too much like me at the moment…can’t even afford peanut butter.
Brooke: Ain’t that the truth.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Sarah Palin
…makes me want to stab a knife through my ears.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
how to annoy me
…walk in the middle of the running path with your huge ass stroller when it clearly states every five-hudred feet, “NO STROLLERS!”
Thursday, September 25, 2008
you’re gonna suffer for my sins
Most of you know how much I love Terra Naomi, her music and the unbelievable things she does with her voice, and how I just can’t get enough of her. Well, this past Sunday I had the pleasure of seeing her amazing talented self at Joe’s Pub. And as always, she was fantastic. It was a very intimate show, not a huge crowd, only her, her two guitars and piano on stage. But what made the night for me, well not really “made” the night, but what had me thinking after the show was one particular song of hers, “Suffer for Her Sins.” Though a new song, I have heard it before, but I guess I never really paid that much attention to the lyrics. But the song is basically about a mother and daughter, and how the daughter is going to spend her life suffering for her mothers sins. I spent the entire train ride home, plus the last several days wrapping my brain around the idea of this. And somewhere between Sunday night and this morning I’ve come to accept or maybe grasp is a better word, that this concept is true.
I believe in karma, that what goes around, comes around. I believe we can and do affect the lives of others without being aware of it. And I DO believe that we ourselves not only pay for our sins but those around us do as well. That our sins and actions cause a ripple effect, spanning outward, touching and crashing into those around us. But I ask, How can this be? How can it be fair to suffer for someone else’s mistakes and actions? I don’t know. Though, I believe that all our actions and decisions have consequences, good or bad, and we can affect those around us positively as well as negatively.
After reciting and contemplating the lyrics in my head I immediately wanted to call my mom and thank her for being the most saintly, holy person I know. For not making stupid decisions, for realizing early on that her actions just might affect her children. My mother and I have actually had a similar conversation such as this, but I have never bothered or taken the time to say, thank you. God knows that the pain and suffering I’ve had in my life is a direct result of my own actions and sins. I am beyond grateful that my mother kept her sinning to a minimum. Because wow, have I made some horrible decisions and mistakes all on my own. I already feel guilty and ashamed because somehow, eventually my children will suffer for something I’ve done or yet to do. And that scares the hell out of me.
*Here is a video of “Suffer for Her Sins.” I’ve also included the lyrics.When I was just a little girl
My mother said to me
Just before she tucked me into bed
As she leaned in close
I felt her lips upon my cheek
And softly these six words are what she said
You’re gonna suffer for my sins
You’re gonna suffer for my sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
You’re gonna suffer for my sins
Predictably those cursed words did haunt me everyday
No matter what, no matter where I hid
I spend my years believing that there was no other way
But suffering and suffering’s what I did
Oh yes, I suffered for her sins
That’s right, i suffered for her sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
And so I suffer for her sins
30 years have passed since mama brought me to this world
That’s 30 years spent trapped inside this shell
And nobody believes me
They think I’m a foolish girl
But there are many different kinds of hell
And now I suffer for her sins
Oh yes I suffer for her sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
And so I suffer for her sins
Oh now I suffer for her sins
Oh yes I suffer for her sins
There is no escaping this
It comes from deep within
And so I suffer for her sins
Oh yes I suffer for her sins
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
is it october 30th yet?
I’m not sure how much longer I can wait for the new episodes of 30 Rock to begin. My skin is literally itching for it. If you’re not watching it, then you’re no friend of mine. Seriously, watch it. Love it. Make babies with it.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
i missed you, dear blog, please take me back
I know, it’s been a while, or rather forever. I doubt anyone even stops by these days. But the off chance that someone does, rest assure, I’m back!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
story people tuesday: the future
“THINGS TO KNOW ABOUT THE FUTURE: It doesn’t have to look any particular way, but around here, if it doesn’t, a lot of people will never speak to you again.” Storypeople.com